Creatures

The Witch-king of Angmar is one of my favorite characters in LOTR, why? Simply because he is so evil and powerful. I'm drawn to the dark side, i often find myself rooting for the bad guys wondering what the out come would be if they did prevail. He scares me also, that Nazgul hes perched upon haunted my dreams once or twice, its just so freaking awesome/ ferocious.

I often imagine people i don't care for as creatures, my CEO is an Ogre. You may be thinking gosh this dude really holds a lot of dislike for people....its true..i don't like a lot of people. For whatever reason my like for the human race on the whole is minimal. You may label me anti social, pompous, quiet, unable to start/hold a conversation , but if your "vibes" isn't pleasing to me I wouldn't make an effort to even try to fake like you :/

Maybe i should try and change this trait about me. Be more social instead of socially awkward.On the flip side if i do like you, I'm your best buddy :P

I have a confession to post in my next blogging moment :/

Dear Manager

Dear Manager,

I do not like you, in fact i may be very close to shouting I HATE YOU. You came into this company 2 years after i started, taking up the managers position because your dad who is the CEO was "retiring" from one company to take up a position in another. You had no managerial experience, your last job was a some sort of administrative position in BP. Now don't get me wrong cause I believe that everyone should be given a chance, its been 3 years since and nothing has changed.

You're idea of managing is strutting in 2 times per week, with your horrid fashion sense from 10-2 barking orders at staff, grumbling like an active volcano at reports you have to submit to our UK office, while shouting Bullocks all the time...I mean seriously you are a Trini :/ and being very angry for no apparent reason. This has de motivated staff , some are very scared of you, while some of us wants to push your flat ass down the stairs. Maybe this was your goal, but being scared doesn't equal respect. I have no respect for you what so ever because you are bitter, childish, never heard of hair product, or earrings and lack any sort of professionalism when it comes to one your most valuable resource - Your Staff

i don't know if you have problems at home or what, but that is no excuse to come in here with that dutty attitude and jeans. I remember our last Xmas dinner when i brought my sexily clad friend to accompany me , you blatantly asked me in front of everyone " Is this your sister , so glad she can join us" to which my friend said " umm no I'm his GF and planted a kiss on me" it was good to see the look on your face, and even better to see your husband literally drooling over my gal pal. You sat right next to me and i didn't say a single word to you. I loved it.

I hate the way you dress, I hate the way you talk down to people and i absolutely hate your attitude towards me. I hate that you pass off your work to me and then take all the credit. I hate that you get jealous when our UK superiors praise me for a job well done and my dapper wardrobe. I hate that your father also exhibits this behavior, but guess what I work fucking hard for this company and I deserve it.

I hope that in time you realize that your attitude stinks, and your "I'm better than everyone" tone of voice will give you many enemies . I hope that karma comes back and bites you in the ass in a big way.

In conclusion I'd like to say a big "FUCK YOU!!" I love my job , I get along with my co workers and we all HATE the living daylights out of you. I'm happy you only come in Twice a week cause all 5 days will drive me insane.

Respectfully hoping that you jump off a cliff

The Blue Wolf

*End of Rant*

So many things

I have so many things i wanna write, so many thoughts to get out of my head but time seems never to permit me to sit and express myself . I wanna start something new called "Angry letters from a Blue Wolf"

Its suppose to be therapeutic to express one's anger, and believe me i have a lot to go around. maybe this will help, maybe it wont but I'm sort of looking forward to writing angry letters instead of mumbling under my breath and clenching my fists.

This may be fun

Japan

My heart goes out to Japan, it seems like they are raking in bad karma or something, its one disaster after the other . I can't begin to imagine how i would cope with something like that, or worse to have survived while most of my family members didn't :(. The Japanese people though are very calm and orderly which i admire so much. My thoughts, good wishes and prayers are with you, may you as a country recover and as a people progress past this disaster and look towards a brighter day.

Be A Good Person , Be a good person

Something weird is happening to me right now, not physically but events-wise...okay let me get down to the meat of it ...suddenly everyone wants to have sex with me...:/ No lie! As you may have gathered from this blog, when i look at myself in the mirror I see something that Animal Planet should have a documentary on....but i've been getting weird offers from "friends" to well basically meet for a suck and fuck...all these people know im involved...there's that no respect for relationships thing again.

I'm no saint, but i will seriously be filled with guilt if i do take up any one of these offers, although a small part of me wants to but i must be strong and not give into temptation.

What was my point? *head slap* i always seem to lose the point of my posts...o yea..feels awesome to be wanted like this, but did i just wake in an alternative timeline where morals have all disappeared along with STDs? Why is lust so difficult to control? I myself have struggled with controlling this wild horse called lust, and yes a couple times it got the better of me, but I'm trying sooo hard to be a good person.

P!nk - F**kin' Perfect Made me cry and feel wonderful at the same time

School is Scary

I am very awkward socially, i don't speak unless spoken to, i don't ever make eye contact with anyone and the only words i ever speak during class is " Good Morning" when i enter the room. Sheeessshh you would think at this age i would be a little more of a social butterfly...scratch that....a social caterpillar? but alas I'm still a clam in its shell. We were split up into groups , well everyone except me ..I was alone... I was my own group...very embarrassing...not that i made any sort of effort to be in a group, i just sat there like dead carcass.

Eventually the teacher gave me a handout, which led me to believe I'm a group LOL. I did group work by myself and submitted -myself- now I'm sure everyone in that class has labelled me as anti social.Which is partially true, but still I'd like to make a couple friends. Maybe as time progresses...maybe..

BTW..studying not going so well, nothing seems to stick and everything is distracting me. I need to pass this to prove to myself that i can be better, better than what people perceive me to be ( story coming soon) That's all for now and yes I'm on my laptop...see I'm blogging more :P

Been so long

School has started , yup I'm back at school after a 2 year break *proud face* Its difficult, I can't seem to get back into the groove of studying, I guess with time, patience and perseverance , it will come. I just wanted to come here so people will know I'm alive. My bf bought me a laptop so maybe ill blog more, since I'm now "mobile" ...we will see ...