Yesterday's message was one asking for forgiveness, from me. Basically the footnotes are he was jealous of me and my attitude towards life, he was jealous of the fact i had a bf, he was jealous i seemed to always be happy no matter what i was going through and he couldn't stand it. Of course i was shocked by this revelation , i felt a bit proud , I mean i have never had anyone be jealous of me before, well at least not to my knowledge. At the end of his letter he asked for my forgiveness, for his thoughts and actions towards me.
I stopped for a minute and thought about it. Thought about the courage it must have taken him to admit these things to me, to swallow pride and seek the forgiveness of someone else. I did forgive him. He then sent me a friend request which i accepted, we chatted online for a bit and i had a greater understanding of him.
He was depressed , utterly depressed about everything occurring in his life, and that was his way of just lashing out at everyone and everything. Hes says hes in a better place now, and much more comfortable in his own skin and circumstances. I'm happy hes running up that hill , instead of sinking slowly into the pit of nothing.
I was like him once, heck i get like him sometimes. But there is always that little voice inside my head that pulls me out of it. I don't like being depressed, i always feel as if im wasting time sulking around crying and staring at the walls, when i could be doing something i love, like cooking or better yet eating.
Of course when you accept a friend request , it shows up in other people news feed. I was bombarded with questions as to why i add him back, since the end result is hes going to delete me again. My simple answer was its a new year and everyone deserves a second chance.
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Well done.
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