Heartache

The heart yearns...if i had for a single moment doubted that I loved my bf , i will have to stand corrected. We had a disagreement yesterday, he said some stuff and I said some stuff. From lunch time then ( yesterday) till now we have not spoken to each other . I miss him.I can't stop thinking about him. It feels like its been over a year since i last saw him. I called but no answer :( I dunno how I'll make it through the night, all this plus I'm so hungry cause i left my lunch home- double :( -- I hope he calls soon.

Wondering Wolf

I often wonder if i were straight would be married by now? I'm 27, all my kin younger and older are married...they stare at me when the topic of marriage comes along, my mother rants she wants more grand kids and then looks at me , I simply walk away.

Yesterday on my bed with the BF I wondered if i could marry him would I?....Would I have gotten engaged to my ex? Would my ex and I still be together.....sigh so many unanswered questions , at the end of it all , I'm still in hiding and I know i wont have the wedding I always wanted---A big Hindu one---

Happy New Queer

Happy 2011 to everyone out there may the divine keep you and yours safe, blessed and always happy. Though obstacles may cross you path this year, jump right over them and keep moving on, I'm re opening this blog to help with my emotional baggage :/... Peace and Blessings :)