Depression

Ive been fighting a battle with depression over the past couple months, it comes and goes and leaves me with the most empty feeling ive ever had. I think about many things, many of my short comings...education, looks, personality, talent ...the list goes on and on....i find myself sitting in the dark....just sitting doing nothing, not even staring into the darkness, just sitting there nothing on my mind, no thoughts floating about ...just there....its a sad state even for me but its like i don't even have the zeal to snap myself out of it. I sometimes think im such a lazy bitch for not even having the will power to get myself up and walk around, maybe it will help, maybe it wont , at least i wont be there sitting in the dark...being nothing...feeling like nothing....Im rambling on and on aren't i ? I dont even know why im blogging about this, not like anyone reads the crap i put here, on some level im hoping getting some of this off my chest will help me.

Good Idea , Bad Idea

Good Idea: Jumping Rope to keep fit

Bad Idea: Jumping rope to keep fit while singing "My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard" and grabbing your chest ...Neighbors stare from their backyard

Dear Reckless Drivers

Hello Reckless Drivers of Trinidad,

You guys and gals are really assholes, swerving in and out of lanes, speeding through red lights, switching lanes without indicators, randomly stopping  ...I can go on and on. Have you ever stopped to wonder what about the other cautious drivers on the road ( like me) ?

The sad thing is ,when you cross the median and crash into a family coming home from a beach lime killing everyone in that vehicle while you and your passenger escape with minor injuries no one gets charged.

So a big fuck you- to you, be more considerate...you are not going to be late twice, and I'm sure the place you are going to isn't running away . Luckily I believe in Karma so i know you will get yours

Thank you, have a great day and remember always buckle up.

Grateful that god didn't endow me with mutant powers to blow up cars,

The Blue Wolf

The Memories

The memories that are intertwined with songs sometimes comes to bite me in the butt , and not in a good way. This morning i put my ipod on shuffle and proceeded to eat my breakfasses.Then this song came up:

Anna Nalick: Forever Love (digame)

On the ground
With my world
Upside down
I got a vision of your face
And I must get me out
For so many memories we've yet to make
God don't send to me your angels
I just wanna hear you say again

Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
If I go
I'll know

When you smile
With those eyes
Baby it's like
You place a finger on my heart
And your lips next to mine
Makes me think that maybe heavens where you are
God don't send to me your angels
I just wanna hear you say again

Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
And if I go
I'll know

La la la la...

Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
And If I go
I'll know
Forever love
Say you'll love
Digame, Digame
Tell me so
I can hold you in my soul
And if I go
I'll know

It was our song (my Ex and I) Holds good memories and bad ones.

Maybe in my next post i'll talk about him :(

The Universe Answers!!

I'm sitting here typing how horny i am when i get a BBM message from my BF telling me, I'm all his later :)...This was followed by some really raunchy talk that i had to end cause believe me i would have creamed my work pants.

We have been together for awhile now but he still knows how to turn up the fire , and well he gets hard every time he sits next to me...so i guess i'm still working his "On switch "...maybe it my pheromones :/

Whatever the reason is when we get together its fireworks :)

BTW did this blog just move from "PG-13" to "XXX" with my last post lol

O Dammmm

Cause im Horny , these are supposedly Reichen Lehmkuhl ...yum!!

TMI?

I haven't had sex for a week, i think i am going to flip out. My Bf and i usually get it on everyday :p but  for the past week he's been working late and the 5 mins we get to hang out together , we are both just too tired --i've been putting in a couple extra hours myself.

I seriously cannot function, everything reminds me of sex, it's like im sporting a boner since morning. I'm literally stuck behind my desk cause if i stand up ....boing!! its all up in ppl space...lol..

I'm hoping as its Friday I'll be able to get some later. in the meantime, I'm trying not to touch myself or think about sex.